My Weight.

Hi guys,

I wanted to make a blog post because I weighed myself for the first time in a long time today. The above two pictures are taken two years apart and there is no weight difference.

In February 2013, I reached my goal weight and surpassed this and got down to about 120lbs. At this point, I was doing about two hours of cardio a day and eating around 1300 calories - basically a lot of carbs and no protein. Then, when I moved home for summer, I started doing less cardio and more weight lifting and eating more and I have put on the weight that I lost.

I am genuinely okay with this. I sometimes look back at old photos and think about how skinny I was but I remember being unhappy with my body even at that point and I wasn't content. There is definitely a large difference between the two pictures despite the fact I weigh the same, however I have definitely gained some fatty weight.

I've just come back from a ten day holiday in New York and despite eating clean 60% of the time and working out, I definitely had some amazing cheats so I reckon I'm holding 3-4lbs of water weight that I can get rid of over the next couple of weeks and I have definitely gained some muscle. I reckon over the two years I've gained AT LEAST 10lbs of muscle, so therefore only a small part of it is fat gain. I suppose you could call it a badly designed bulk ;)

Despite this, I just wanted to show that the scales do not entirely matter. I am much much healthier and fitter than I was in the first picture despite being the same weight.

I am happy with my body right now but I definitely want to lose some of this extra fat I'm holding from my holiday and things so my goal for Christmas is to be 139lbs, I don't want to lose any muscle that I've gained and I don't want to lose that much weight, just this extra fluff hehe.

I just wanted to be honest with you guys and admit that I have gained weight over the summer and I am not going to be as skinny as I was before. There is no way I am going back to eating less than 1500 calories again a day, it's not healthy for me and I don't need to be super skinny to be happy. I want to be strong and fit and I'd rather be these two than be skinny and be low on energy all the time because I don't eat enough.

I'm happy and I hope this helps anyone who is feeling down about their weight. Just remember that every single decision you make towards a healthy life, for example ordering a salad when eating out, it all helps. Every little thing you do does something and remember that :)